My hard drive crashed and so I am having to reclaim bits of my life from the environment all over again. Its like starting a new life when middle-aged. You are open to new growth but you miss the mass of wood you had in your trunk. I tell you, a drive crashing is a good alternative to suicidal depression. Suddenly you don't even know yourself any longer and when you reach for your audio mirror, you see gaps and experience phantom itches for the music which used to be an integral part of your life's soundtrack.